ended up in the emergency room with overdosed and cuts. it was too late to pump my stomach so..i forgot parts of that night but i remember the doctor kept kicking on my bed to keep me conscious for awhile and yelling at me about how i would have been dead if i was 30 seconds late.

then they took me to the iCU unit and i was there for 3 nights. and everyone called me sleeping beauty cause i cried, slept, woke up, cried again and went back to sleep.

of course, the assholes sent me to another hospital to stay in a psych ward until they felt like i wont kill myself and also this is the 3rd time in one year that i tried to off myself.

even though, it was involuntary; it was funny to fake being so okay in front of others and the doctors to help myself get out of there.

but i am back in home and i feel like i am back to where i started. also my ipod is at the same spot i stopped the music and i started from there..